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update

Delicious and glorious and simple return to Mt. Bonnell. Feeling fantastic – energetically and otherwise – about sex for the first time in weeks. The shadow is past. Hopeful and restful all at once. Reset to occur in less than … Continue reading

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It’s about connection. That’s why a few weeks ago I would look forward to Facebook posts and messages from Her… And why I spent the evening just watching hEr paint and play with her puppy and play music… And why … Continue reading

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vignette

“Just now, with you, I came more in one session than I’ve ever come before.” – her

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Attraction

occurs for me to a woman like a Cubist painting does to the eye.

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a plan

Watch Tennant’s miniseries fifteen times. Read the biography and the entirety of the abridged autobiography. Reread all of my journals as a successful reincarnation of The Master. Intersperse quotes of his journals between quotes and memories within mine. Who was … Continue reading

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an observation

I spend so much time with my head stuck up my own ass. Instead of taking actions, I complain, I talk about it, I find people who agree with me about it, and I engage in gripe sessions. Non jam.

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Casanova’s bankruptcy

Neuhaus was always already bankrupt, borne out of pain and the desire for validation. One cannot be effective in forging meaningful relationships when the precontext is proof of one’s value. This is where The Nova Project was hiddenly born from … Continue reading

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casanova eve eve

Casanova: data points strung together into a pattern, a reification, out of fear of losing one’s self to the Flux my how I’ve changed since this all started love Scott H. has it really been a whole YEAR? i actually … Continue reading

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Casanova aftermath

It’s roughly June…maybe July 2012. I am in my mother’s room on the phone with J, with whom I’d just broken up…but it was during that sensitive and cruelly chaotic confused period of vacillation that has often in the past … Continue reading

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denouement de Taurus

I just realized that I gave you dead flowers yesterday. Roses. Somewhere brilliant between black, purple, and a beautiful red. Decayed. Decayed and dead.  As if my unconscious mind had staged some sort of play which that moment was merely … Continue reading

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